On devotion, discipline, and trusting the flow.
I am embarking on my third year of committing myself to a daily visions practice.
Every day, I sit down with no plan. No sketchbook agenda. No promise of inspiration. I arrive, I listen, and I draw what wants to come through. I become an observer. I practice trusting the flow and showing up for myself.
I have been drawing since I could hold a pencil in my hand. For many years, it became my tool of survival and deep shadow work. This is how I learned to heal myself – releasing and transforming energy through a creative outlet. This is how I explore the unknown of my being and anchor the light of higher-dimensional aspects of myself into this plane.
I am a pencil dancer.
I create in surrender to sound, cultivating states of flow. Sound and intention are my main tools. Through them, I express from much deeper aspects of myself, beyond the control of the ego. The more I let go, the better the art becomes. Instead of projecting, I allow what wants to move through – what is already there and waiting to be seen.
I move through the gateway of darkness first. I jump into the abyss of the unknown in full trust and surrender, learning how to fly.
Throughout my journey, I was often told that drawing is “just a sketch” for a painting – not a complete art form. Some said it was a waste of time because it wasn’t bringing me money in the moment. And yet, this practice is how I healed myself from my childhood – and from many more lifetimes. This is how I quantum-shifted from Poland to the United States. This is how I create my reality.
Above all, it trained me to listen to my own truth.
I also dove deeply into painting, I studied with top painting masters and learned Mischtechnik. I learned to flow with that medium as well. But through committing myself to my daily visions practice and drawing more again, this is how I am reclaiming myself.
How could I say no to it, when it brings so much joy – and when my awareness is shifting at an accelerated, quantum rate?
This daily practice sharpens my awareness. It teaches me to see clearly – to see beyond the veil.
Sometimes a vision emerges and it takes years to understand its hidden message. This is how I learn about myself, uncovering what still longs to be healed so I can become a clear vessel for divine energy flowing through me. I am on a path of exploring my infinite creative potential – and as a result, I live in a constant state of overflow.
These are not just images.
They are dimensional portals.
The act of creation becomes an inter-dimensional contact experience.
When my mind begins to project, I often turn the page upside down and focus on the beauty of abstract textures. And sometimes, different beings come through – asking to be seen.
When someone tells me, “You are so talented,” I often feel: but this is not me. I am simply good at stepping out of the way.
I am always on a journey back to the Primordial Spirit, meeting my true self beyond the layers of consciousness that create distortion.
Third year in, I no longer see this as discipline. Discipline implies force. This is devotion – a daily act of surrender, an ongoing conversation with the unseen.
As a visionary artist and sound healer, I’ve come to recognize that drawing and sound arise from the same source. When I draw, I listen with my eyes. When I work with sound or the voice, I draw with vibration, evoking visions. At the core of it all, I am anchoring frequencies. Both practices require the same thing of me: to get out of the way and trust the flow.
This practice has softened my need to control outcomes. It has loosened my attachment to identity – to being “an artist” as something I must prove. Instead, it has rooted me in process. I offer myself as a vessel for creative intelligence.
The most profound shift has been internal.
Through this practice, I’ve discovered ways to gently shatter the belief that someone is “not an artist.” This process is about reclaiming the joyful play of the inner child. And with time, it becomes more and more fun.
If there is anything this practice has revealed to me, it’s this:
you don’t need to wait to feel ready.
You only need to arrive.
Again.
And again.
And again.
If you’re feeling stuck creatively and could use gentle guidance in your process, feel free to reach out. I’m opening space for private art classes, available in person and online.
